Friday, March 20, 2009

I am a Presea

You're a very classy person, with a need for speed. But although you're classy, you're still very in-the-know. You are aware of the different trends and the technology that comes out. Sometimes you follow these trends, sometimes you don't. It all kinda depends on how you feel. Disappear by The Summer Obsession is most likely a good song to describe your life. You are one of the elite, and you are totally aware of that though you don't really ever make a point of telling everyone. You can sometimes be very mysterious, making people wonder exactly who you are. You are very conscious of the feelings of other people around you, but you don't always let the people in on that. Sometimes it can be hard for people to get close to you because you leave them in the dust before they have the chance to get to know you. So chill. Take life a litte slower, and move out of the fast lane for once. Take time to enjoy life and smell the roses. You'll be glad you did. Trust me, life will look a bit more beautiful just because you took time to stop and stand still.


I am apprehensive about posting this on facebook. though i took it on facebook. sometimes, we can do without that dangerous level of publicity.

but, the purpose of this is that some years down the road, i might bump into this post again and realise, hey, isnt that porche what i found in ms. presea? haha.
see boy, daddy made the right pick.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

value

i was reflecting deeply (i dont know why) about the recent campus horror at NTU. it could happen to any of us - that moment of folly, irrationality, loss of control. every human is weak.

i too, like most, value my education. it's telling through the time, effort and money we invest in it. though, in every right, nobody puts a gun to our heads to 'force' our commitment (it's non-compulsory education, anyway).

value. identity.

but, how many are secure to know that we are still who we are, with or without that recognition, success (or rather avoidance of a great failure), that we so desire?

Monday, February 23, 2009

my new phone, my same comfort.

i felt like i did something wrong.

the m1 customer service officer was trying so hard to retain her business. but i insisted anyway, that i wanted the (seven year) business with them canceled.

it's the recession, and i became her nightmare by telling her, "sorry, i've switched to singtel."

m1's good anyway.

but, the good news is, i've got myself a 5-megapixel LG phone. hahaha. so proud.

...

i keep telling people around me nowadays, "you can't really control your grades, but you control your effort."

and somehow, it's comforting just to repeat the same line every time. maybe cos sometimes i need that reminder too.

but for now, it's 100 percent of melvin (as usual) for biz law. and i know, somehow, i will not be shortchanged. i have God with me. :)

(time flies huh, the last time i blogged was like the start of term. now im more than half through it. or, rather, melvinstory collects dust all the time)

Sunday, January 18, 2009

unbreathable joy

i seriously need to catch up on my sleep.

but the amount of work piling on my back steals away this privilege.

...

i am trying to see this as a 'good problem'.
i've told many, who tried to 'comfort me' (thanks!), that im not complaining. cos i am enjoying some parts of this busyness.
and, it's obnoxious to complain when,
- you are not the only one on the hard journey,
- you choose to add some additional load onto yourself (i especially cannot complain about this. i know i've learnt alot through some of the responsibilities given to me at this time)

yes, capacity, is my new year wish, again.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

it will get better.


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Jings supporter.
guess who haha.
here i go again :p

i thought week one was almost hell for me.
and it ended with me vomiting at school at the end of a day of marathon classes.
one of the last questions the prof ma asked was directed at me.

"let's try an example. where do you live?" (pointing at me)

"erm, me? pasir ris, an eastern part of singapore." (he's a visiting prof. you see)

"oh, you take the train?"

"yea, east-west line."

"green line?"

"huh?" (hesitated. you see, my head was already SPINNING.) "oh yes."

"do you take the red line?"

"(huh again?) erm, i can if i want, take the train up and a round trip down again..."

i told ronald, if he had carried this any further, i would have really vomited there and and then. haha. lucky i was in time to move to the washroom.

so that was week one.
but it's alright.
the thing is,
i know things will only be better.
melvin always believes. :)

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

come, stretch me.

05012009. day one, term two, AY2008/9.
left home, 0700.
left school, 2245.
reached home, 0000.

i am tired - not thinking straight.

but boy was it a blast.

and yet, i know my engine isnt fully warmed up.
more potential to be revealed.

haha.

but this was the day i had been perversely looking forward to.
and yea, (it) did not disappoint.

and i pray things will get even better.

and the day ended with a high, definitely.
albeit the greatest surprise had to be the NS call up due to happen ON MY COMING BIRTHDAY.

i am pumped up again, just thinking of the impact and waves we are going to create all over this island state when our baby, project playitright, materializes into a hit event come july.

ok, i know i am really tired. cos i know this post sounds a little out-of-order to this word, but i am not editing it.

let me go draft my corporate cover to SBS, and then i can hit the pillow.

the point is, thank You, for a great day, term, year, years. :)

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Dear Melvinstory,

i am stressed out.
didnt know it would turn out this bad..

if you say i have only myself to blame, i know. i've heard it too many times.

and if you tell me that there's a way out - to give up, i know too. but i havent believed in this option. i am still hoping i will never have to consider this alternative.

what is value?
why am i the only one who calls it 'worthy'?

i didnt know there's such a high price to pay to keep this something i call dear.

can i also believe in a miracle?

Friday, December 19, 2008

the Asian society

i just attended an insightful debate on the issue of 'is the world caring too little about some nations' on BBC World, and it really provoked a few humble thoughts of mine.

halfway through the discussion, it became evident that the question became 'is it America (and the West)'s job to intervene only?'.

though nobody calling into the discussion raised this (i had wanted to call up but the session was almost closing when i got the phone), i realized that it would be, if the alternative was to depend on Asians to rise up the the same call.

yes the legitimate argument labeling it the West's job is that they have the most resources to contribute charitably. but allow me to remind ourselves (including me) that with the rise of many 'dragons' and what have we, resources, financially or otherwise, are increasingly being owned by Asian masters of today too. so, why are we then preferring to call it other peoples' job and refusing to partake in its ownership in this due season?

i had wanted to say that Asians are, sadly, a less caring population. (if you think im trying to throw bad eggs at a foreign camp, im reminding you im doing it to myself too.)

this has to do with our deep-running tradition of being a modest people. unlike the western counterparts, we are less likely to consider the affairs of other individuals as ours. a Chinese proverb correctly puts it - to sweep off snow at one's own door front.

dont mistake this as an interpretation of an immoral Asia. we are just amoral, and the relevant difference lies therein. i heard someone said before that Asians are takers, but less givers. i reserve my comments on the first, but i render full agreement to the latter.

another point i wished i could have pointed out is that Asians gravitate to identifying with ethnic similarities more than our liberalized Western counterparts, who embrace the human race as a whole more readily. so, even if charitable givings by Asians are not to be overseen in our discussion here, i believe a closer look would provide some clue to show that we had been more comfortable lending help among ourselves.

if this humble post gets onto a known platform to create any waves, i know to expect backlash from nobody but Asians first, who care about pride (my third point) more than anybody. but then again, melvinstory's little known. :)

i used to have naively not being able to comprehend why the world's Big Brother, America, had its nose poked in so many of the domestic affairs of other nations. but i realize that it is because of their understanding of a global village and their moral stake in it which i lack that motivates them to get their hands on a dirty job. but the least i could do to start learning from them was to open up my heart and recognizing my areas of inadequacy, and to deal with them. i believe radical change is slowly but surely on its way, when the Asian society made up of you and me starts to change.

Monday, December 15, 2008

命中注定 cheena pok.

i realized something while sleeping trying to sleep yesterday,
(cos i talk myself to sleep sometimes)
i seriously need some language re-training.

you see, i am a cheena-pok person. seriously.
and i default to using Chinese always, or at least most of the time.

this holiday has been horrible.
having just finished another GREAT show, 《命中注定我愛你》, and rehearsing through the lead role with myself many times, im getting comfortable being this cheena-pok melvin again.

oh talking about the show.
it got me crying and sneezing through many nights. man!
haha.

oh heck. who says i cant be effectively bilingual?
auntie tang said i am.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

sorry.

how careless can i get.

that day, i promised prof i would be at his office at noon to submit my details to be his TA.
and then, i got it all messed up, and was about half an hour late.

no excuses. i should have regarded the opportunity with more respect.

and prof was really good.
when i emailed him to apologize later,
he drew a parallel of this experience to preparing myself for an interview for a 'potentially good job offer'.

i must learn my lesson this time.