隱形的翅膀

每一次 都在 徘徊孤單中堅強
每一次 就算很受傷也不閃淚光
我知道 我一直有雙隱形的翅膀
帶我飛 飛過絕望

不去想 他們 擁有美麗的太陽
我看見 每天的夕陽也會有變化
我知道 我一直有雙隱形的翅膀
帶我飛 給我希望

我終于 看到 所有夢想都開花
追逐的年輕歌聲多嘹亮
我終于 翱翔 用心凝望不害怕
哪里會有風就飛多遠吧

隱形的翅膀 讓夢恒久比天長
留一個愿望讓自己 想象

i remember last sunday, when i was driving to school, this song was played over the airwaves. and as i listened, and hummed, those sentimental feelings came like a flood.

*每一次 就算很受傷也不閃淚光*

i was just sharing briefly that day with a friend, that though this has been a rough time of my life, and as well as a trying one, it had not been one which showed or allowed many outlets for that pent-up agonies. yes, i will not deny that there were good times too, and probably they were remedying the not-so-good-times unconsciously, i dont know.

but i dont know, things had been happening so fast they did not allow any time for reflective thoughts, and i dont know if it means good for anyone.

*我知道 我一直有雙隱形的翅膀*

but i know i had been blessed. and i can count those blessings.

the learning curve has been steep for me these while, and i appreciate every opportunity that knocked. just today, i wore, for the first time (*blush*), the real power suit and had the honor of speaking in the front-of-house capacity for the class.

and i had few feel-good presentations which felt as if i were another person - i didnt know i could pull them all off.

and i know, i couldnt have done anything near this much, if i had not been (biased-ly) blessed by God. it had been long since i was able to do such a thing. since few years back when i made a public blunder (i used to be 'outspoken', and had fairly good public speaking skills) and almost had to pay a heavy price for it, i shunned away from making myself openly vulnerable this way. and i became so cautious of every next opportunity to present myself (which i tried to avoid), that i realized i was overcame with fear. who would have knew i once had confidence - no trace could be seen. i became a complete portrayal of the shy and fearful background worker. i refused speaking to the unfamiliar.

but i knew it was the devil's work, which i cannot subdue to. since the day i made a choice for smu, i knew it was 'God better come true for me' or nothing. it was a daring move, but a faithful one.

and i know, when i pray, God moves. thank You, for the 隱形的翅膀. =)

and, i pray for a greater capacity, really. there's much more that can be done better.