bye

the feeling of disorientation, you know.

one week earlier it was the first ict of my ns-life, and now im thrown back into a completely different world.
as the new week reaches, i am feeling a little lost trying to enter it.

suddenly some things must change.
the things you do to endure time must change.
you must accept that you will see lesser of the people you had been dependent on for the week.
even the pace of life changes.

how nice if things such as comfort zones dont exist, right?
they dont, except in the minds. that makes them ever so controlling of you.

...

this week, it is probably time for melvin to seek closure for the year.
to be thankful for the steady stream of blessings.
to seek out areas of improvement.
to set sight on higher goals.

thats the only way to ask for a more meaningful year ahead.
i want to spend the year giving more meaningful deposits to the lives of people i appreciate,
and enjoy the presence of them more than i did in the past year.
i want to gain more meaningful moments of sweat and labor in the things i set my hands to build,
and grow in wisdom and understanding through the year.

thank the comfort zones i enjoyed staying within, i am moving on.
boy, this requires some effort.