the edge

i cant wait for tomorrow (sunday,yes sunday)'s AS test to be so over. cos i havent slept for like more than one week. and people are telling me yes, those eye bags are forming. i dont quite care actually, just that im really looking forward to do well for the test, go to east coast for my meeting, and finally have one night of real rest before i start cracking on deepavali again.

no i am not whining, we do get busy sometimes and rest's something worth looking forward to.

oh, the tata crucible competition.

well, i didnt win anything, but it was great seeing the smu champion team from last year defending their title against other peers from the other unis. i am very proud of them, and i learnt alot in that one insightful event. and i can understand why one of tata's director had to interrupt abruptly during the prize presentation, to personally invite the defending champs (who broke a record in tata crucible's history anyway - no team's managed to come in champs consecutively) to india to witness the competition there.

because, the standards of quality they displayed were impressive, and i've since renewed my determination to gain that same cutting 'smu eduge' that they possess.

it is hard for this 'edge' to be put in words, but it definitely humbled me by a great extent when i witnessed how awesome it is. it is the ability to think on your feet when commanded to, to present the self with such an air of confidence that (interestingly) your audience applaud at your wrong answers sometimes when they mistakably think you've got it right, it is what i call a biting (against a blunt, average) edge.

and, i've come to the realisation that a price has to be paid to make it there. i've concluded that this is an institution of higher learning - one that demands quality inputs through a rigorous process, and the sacrifice is the price of a sustained committment to apply oneself and continue achieving newer learning.

yes having been through one term i have my compalints, i have my grievences, and sometimes i wish life could be taken with an easier pace. but i have grown very sick and tired of seeing people showing immauturity by, taking a common example, 'shouting' childishly and in a nonsensical way on facebook groups asking for 'change'. i believe we are grown enough to know that there are formal ways to seek attention for the many issues we consider close to our hearts; and we should always consider the unintended effects of our irresponsibility otherwise if we choose not to act in the most legitimate way.

sometimes, we just have to not try to act so 'bimbo' and 'himbo' publicly and be a shame to ourselves and those you represent. it's not quite cute anymore.

no i am not against those shouting to produce good social effects, which leverage on the use of advancements correctly.

sorry, just one of my many sighful lamentations of something which picks at my nerves in their frequent occurances nowadays!

oh yes, the edge. i have so much more to learn, i have so much to change (about myself).
God, i pray for new capacity.
:)