the other melvin

i am still affected.

i happen to have a few classes where there are 'the other melvins' around in the small classes - its a problem of living in a small world.

and just now, when the class was bringing up the other melvin, one natural question was, 'which?'.

the taller melvin.

and it hit me, suddenly. i could not help it. i could not help with the insecurities.
maybe i didnt quite mind being the 'less tall' one, but, did it imply also the 'less outstanding' one?

and thats the cruelty sometimes, i think. because we all try so hard to differentiate ourselves from one another (find a niche), sometimes we hate it when the differentiating factor speaks for the other side. its good to be compared with, only when you're 'the' one.

and, i felt like the other melvin.

it was an innocent remark, but i dont know, i am struggling to treat it casually. :(